Lord Fill This Place!

It was Sunday night about 8:00 and I was asking God to draw closer to me and He said to me, "you can draw closer" up to that moment I had been expecting God to draw closer to me when in fact the scripture tells us "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you" James 4:8....so I found myself contemplating why I always ask Him to come near instead of me drawing closer to Him, especially when He lays the promise out in scripture.

So I put it to the test. I can only remember a hand full of times in my life I was thirsty enough, hungry enough, desperate enough, that I was seeking Him so hard that He had to show up. Now let's fast forward to yesterday I was in a pretty good mood, just hungry all day for something, I wasn't sure what that something looked like but God knew. I was actually being productive on my day off and cleaning house, not kinda cleaning but you know, doing the stuff that reminds us spring is upon us and we are getting ready to open the windows again and let the sunshine in kinda cleaning....So I decided, hey how about we make this an adventure instead of a hardship, I grabbed my ipod stuck in my earbuds and away I went me and God cleaning house....

I have been listening to this new worship leader Roy Fields over and over and am awestruck by his song "Fill This Place" and as I was vacuuming away embracing the words of this song I started to sing along and started making this song real personal asking God to fill my home with His presence asking Him to fill my family up with His presence. I started thinking what if we all did that what if we all desperately asked God to fill our homes with HIM what if we asked God "let there be less of me and MORE of You" just like John 3:30 says. What if every time we met in our journey groups as a group we prayed that prayer or sang that song over all our homes, what could happen if OUR HOMES became so full of God, what could happen to our church if we had HIS presence all over our lives - we would carry that presence right into church with us every week for that matter we would carry His presence with us everywhere we go. So this became my conversation with Jesus yesterday.

As I am vacuuming, singing, praying, & drawing closer to Him next thing I knew I was certain He had come near I could feel His presence - there was the King right in my living room yes you got it I drew closer to Him and He came near in fact He came so close next thing I knew I wasn't vacuuming any longer I was flat of my back in the middle of my living room floor (stay with me don't freak out and ex out of my blog cause I know what your thinking, she's gone nuts). Now I have no idea how long I was there on the floor all I know is when I started feeling my legs again I remember thinking "that's what that feels like to be so hungry for Him that He shows up and all you can do is soak in His presence" I laid there for awhile just asking God "why is it that we are so scared of Your presence, Your Holiness, why don't we truly ask for more of You and less of us, why are we scared of You when You are such a gentle God, a loving God and an amazing Savior."

Now if you're still reading, here is what I learned from my adventure yesterday. I learned that if we truly want God to show up He will - yes right in the middle of the day, right in our living room - right as we're cleaning house - there is no place He won't show up when we are desperate for HIM. I don't think after yesterday I will ever be the same again. Worship is more than an hour on Sunday it is a way of life and if we want His presence we gotta ask....Let's get desperate with God...after all He promised "draw near to Me and 'I will' draw near to you" I put Him to the test and He passed :)

LORD FILL THIS PLACE/LESS OF ME
Lord fill this place
Let me feel Your embrace
Touch this heart of mine
With Your love so divine

Let the ambers burn in me
Let the fire rise to Thee
You have cracked this heart of stone
You have called me as Your own

I am thirsty hungry desperate for Your presence
I am thirsty hungry desperate for Your presence
Let there be less of me more of You
Let there be less of me more of You